Hello to all those ladies out there that have started early menopause like me and are searching for a place and a person who just might be able to help and/or understand what we are going through. This is my first time doing a blog but I’m hoping by doing this it will not only help me but help other young ladies out there going through the same thing.
For me it all started in December of 2012 at the age of 39 when I got my first horrible hot flash and just went downhill from there. I started this “because” I have had a hard time finding people to talk to and understand what it’s like going through this when you didn’t expect it for another 10 years. I get a lot of pats on the shoulder like “Oh honey, you think you’re in menopause but you’re way to young to even know what that is.” I feel like I need to have my blood test and saliva results handy with me at all times to let people know that it’s not all in my head. I get the whole ” Wow, you’re so young though, are you sure?” According to some people I don’t look 41 so that makes it even harder because everybody thinks I’m younger than I am. Having a hot flash and sweating when you’re talking to a total stranger is no fun either. Try holding on a conversation without trying to fan yourself( hooha included, hahaha)as to not draw unwanted attention and questions. Not an easy task I tell ya and sometimes I just can’t bear it and have to pull out a random piece of paper out of my purse and just start fanning, lol.
I did start bioidentical hormones at the beginning of 2012 or so I thought. Come to find out the doctor gave me one of the worst synthetic hormones out there, Provera. I took that for 5 days and gained 5-6 lbs within days. He said it was water weight but I have yet to lose it all. Then he put me on bromocriptine to keep me ovulating even though my body had no eggs to ovulate with. It did help with the hot flashes but nothing else. I stopped taking it and by the time Sept. of 2013 the hot flashes were back with a vengeance. I found another bioidentical hormone doctor in Pensacola, one of only 2 there and she was the only one that took my insurance. Her bedside manner was so bad from day one that I went home and googled her to see if I was the only one that thought so and come to find out I was not. Anyway, I stuck with her because at this point I was desperate to stop sweating and sleep a whole nights sleep,I wanted to stop feeling like I wanted to punch something or someone and crying all the time. After some tweaking a few times we got the amount right for my progesterone capsules and estrogen/testosterone cream. Only problem was it helped with the hot flashes and anxiety but not the libido and energy levels. Not to mention I gained 8 lbs. I went from 144 to 152. She said that the libido thing was all in my head and weight gain was just part of menopause. Bull honkey is what I say to that. I had to have a D&C due to the extra estrogen and having a period every 2 weeks and had the Novasure Ablasion while I was at it. I bled for 7 weeks after the surgeries and was told by the doctor that did it that maybe I should ask my hormone doctor to up my progesterone. Well, at this time I had already asked her to change my progesterone from capsule to cream because of the effects on the liver. She didn’t like the fact that I was doing my own research and instead of upping my progesterone she just dumped me like a hot potato. I was given the name of another doctor supposedly a bioidentical hormone doctor but turns out he was far from it and talked down to me worse than the first doctor and tried to start me on a one size fits all estrogen patch. Can we say crazy boohoo’s for nothing a day after sticking that thing to my body? No thank you. A few days after that I had to change the patch to a new one and the next day hubby and I were on our way to Aruba for our vacation and I started crying in the airport due to still bleeding heavily from the surgeries and just crying for no reason that I knew of, besides maybe pure frustration with all of this mess. I went in the bathroom and tore that thing off. I stopped bleeding within a day of taking that patch off and not taking any estrogen not even my cream, thinking maybe this was why I wouldn’t stop bleeding. In stopping my estrogen my hot flashes came back and once again…with a vengeance even worse than the last.
I am happy to say right now that I have found an awesome, awesome doctor here in Houston and she’s doing everything I had read about and was hoping the other doctors would do. First of all, she listened to me and then gave me her feedback and thoughts in a very sweet manner not in the “I am God and I know all, I have been doing this for 30 years”, way the others had done. She believes it’s my hormones that are keeping my libido down and it’s not all in my head as I was told before and the weight gain is not the doomed fate of all menopausal women. She said you just have to get your hormones exactly right and we just haven’t done that yet. You have no idea how much I wanted to jump up and hug and kiss this woman, hahaha. She is starting with me upping my progesterone and keeping my estrogen where it was, then in 2 weeks changing the estrogen to half of what I was doing and so on. She wants to try to ween me off estrogen altogether which is what I wanted in the first place.
I have lost 6 lbs. I have also watched my soy intake or anything that might have extra estrogen in it such as plastic drinking bottles, pesticides on fruit. I just wash my stuff or buy organic if I can. I also exercise 5 times a week now at home with T25 and some yoga and pilates thrown in once in a while. The T25 is great because there’s a modifier which a lot of us need…including me( I also had sciatica and back surgery in 2011, yes I know, I’m a hot mess, lol).
All in all, I know this is a lot to take in at first so I’m sorry if I babbled on and on but I wanted to get as much out there from the beginning so if anybody is going through this and has questions they can see all that I have gone through and know they aren’t alone in this. The picture I chose of the squirrel is actually what I have looked like one to many times these last few months. Picture me as the squirrel and the concrete as the kitchen tile floor. I had to stop because I was sticking to it, hahaha. What hot flashes will do to a perfectly sane women. Just remember…YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!